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meeeeee;; 18 years young on 07.31.91. thanking God for all that i have received. attending CUNY HUNTER. forever fan of Twins. OBSESSED with X-family
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| Here I am writing my wishlist where no one will see it BWAHAHAHAHA =P 1) Twins Boxset (6 year anni set)
http://www.yesasia.com/us/our-sixth-anniversary-limited-collection-boxset-12cd-12dvd-with-oversized/1005161033-0-0-0-en/info.html
** OMG BEN WANTING THIS SINCE IT CAME OUT! LIKE everyone chip in and get me this and I'd sooooo appreciate it too =D 2) Twins Old CDs
a) Our Souvenior Album
b) Love Dunk
c) Ichiban 3) Boy'Z Old CDs
a) Hurray
b) a year to remember
c) La La World
4) Fahrenheit CDs
a) Stay With You (Japanese version) with photo book
b) preorder TREASURE
c) 2 side fahrenheit version 3 **i have the 1st 2 i ned the 3rd final version rofl. 5) Rolling Love stuff
a) Photo book
b) OST -- 6) A&F perfume "8" 7) Coach, Marc Jacobs, Juicy Long Wallet 8) Juicy Handbag
9) anything cute and fluffy... anything cool =D im happy with any DVDs or CDs or whatevers haha... anything cute and fluffy too... iono~ =D | | |
| pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off pissed off im damn pissed off... im a horrible person definitely horrible... u hear the fireworks outside? i SHOULD b smiling but nope... inside typing my entry with a stabbed heart ROFL i AMMM totally corny. well yeah. im a horrible person yep... im this im that im this im that... im this im that im this im that... i dont need u all to keep reminding me thank you very much. HAHA please stop it haha... u dun need to tell me 24/7 that im a human born imperfect... that when i look in the mirror im an imperfection (ok that was corny once again *stabs self*) haha... yes... i do not need this from you people. i beg of you to stop constantly telling me. yep i dont mind much~ but there are some things that hurt. most things dont... but some things stab. stopp it stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it please please please stop it stop it... update in my private blog if u people know of it ROFL. doubt so HAHA =P private blogging whenever i get my laptop back *sigh* </3 i need you... i need Him... haha i'll b ok with due time. im sorry im not perfect. | | |
| Havent had an update on my life since forevers. I've had some highlights since my last emo depression and confession of love about twins. A) Anniversary with Lilian 4.17 (it was a disaster)
B) Married to Arnald 4.19
C) Anniversary with Hosanna and Charissa 4.23/29
D) Camp Metamorphosis (that was somewhat interesting)
E) I was sick for a whole month and stayed at home for a whole month.
My pathway goes on and on... so much stress and so much work load. Yesterday I did a writing assignment project, 3 AP English exam essays, and 8 homework assignments. I actually made it in that one day along with school. I still have much to accomplish and get done. SATS are this weekend and AP Psych is within 2 weeks. I will bury my head in that review book for AP Psych, I don't think I can afford a 3. Marking period is ending and I have no hope or whatsoever, I think I dropped like 10 points from my score. </3 Today Mr. Chan came to look for me. He told me that he had a meeting about me and will have yet another one. He wants me to take the Chinese regents and then take AP Chinese next year. Chinese regents is on the same day as Japanese regents. By Golly` I'd have to go to the lunch room and take 2 language regents in a day. I don't think I can breathe. Why the heck is my school so hard? I don't even know if I should take 3 AP languages next year. I don't think I want to stay that long in school. Everybody gets out mad early, but my schedule is always 2 more periods then average ever since freshmen year... WHY?!!! Freshmen YEAR :: 2-10
Sophmore YEAR :: 3-11
Junior YEAR :: 1-9 What have I done to myself? LOL I'm hoping I would stop strangling myself and let myself breathe. This would be my schedule for next year basically (order unknown)
1) AP ENG
2) AP CHINESE
3) AP JAP (may not even do this...)
4) US Hist/Econ (I really don't think I should AP this.... if I do AP this then no AP Jap)
5) Art/Music (I actually have enough credits to grad, and enough instruments but... only have an 88 on my transcript for this b/c composing class pulled my 98's and stuff down to 88 and I wanna pull this grade up since it averages on my GPA so... YEAH xP)
6) Skills Gym
7) Math YES I FINISHED ALL SCIENCES! LOL 2 year Bio, Earth Sci, 2 year Chem, Basics Physics, AP Psych! I made it!!! NO SCIENCES! ROFLLLL this will probably pull up my average ROFL... math & science always brought it down. A 1-7 is actually pretty long... I would've had that even this year... xP I should cut AP JAP & Art/Music and get a 1-5 XD to ensure senioritis won't get the best of me... =) LALALALA on the up side... I went to BEN&JERRYS today just to get my free cone! I traveled from Queens all the way to Manhattan... some may say I'm crazy but it's worth it to take a break from my workload =) I went to 34th street then walked to 42nd =) It was fun! Had 3 cones and that was my dinner right there... SO FULL! tehe XD Have another one tomorrow night O_O Man I'm just havin icecream for dinner! So unhealthy. Oh dear... I miss running in the rain... I miss that feeling of having nothing to worry about. BUT IM STILL JOYFUL CUZ IM IN JOY!!!! LALALALALALALA~ I am... a rubber badn that does not break! I am.... SUPERWOMAN!!!! lalala *song plays in my head* "... but I am only human..." oh shut up gary cao ROFL My job oh dear dear dear~ I don't think I can afford another job at the moment... www.tocmusic.com wanted to hire me... but I don't think I can take it at the moment... and also this company called KeysPiano... Maybe during senior year I will have more free time. If they truly want me... they will come back to me... *sigh* but TOC is such a good opportunity... LaGuardia status yo` *sigh* oh well... fate shall decide. TO-DO LIST::
A) Get that thing for "her" (those who know will know *cough*)
B) Record demo for Florinda's wedding song!
C) Band up her song
D) Finish recording and producing CD "Love's Melody"
E) Tend my shop C'adore O_O no new updates yo`
F) Boot-camp for music
G) Study hard for APS
H) teach harder. train harder. love my students.
I) Record "Yuan Dian" with Lilian!!! (man this delayed like 2 years O_O)
J) STOP SKIPPING GUITAR LESSONS! OH EM GEEZ!~ thats about it =) long long rambling cuz I havent done this in while... thanks for reading my ramble whoeverrrr XD | | |
| Twins forever... I know they dun have the best vocals. But I definitely know they are hardworking. I know they may not be the prettiest around, but they definitely arent bad. I know they may not be the best people, but I know they arent the worst. I know there are things behind the scenes we don't know, so I do not judge. I know the aren't as popular anymore, but they've surely made history. I know people may lose interest in them, but I will still love them forever. I admire their passion. I admire their love towards each other. I love them forever and ever. I will only love them more and more with each and every day, and it will not fade away. I know I don't listen to their music as frequently anymore nor do I sing their songs as much. But it doesnt mean I lost any love for them. I still support them by purchasing their CDs and KTVs & movies. I loved twins ever sing I was 10. They were the first I ever loved, and that is marked really deeply into my heart. I don't think anyone or anything can replace their spots in my heart. I have to say, I'm a person who changes frequently and loves new things and often forgets the old. Twins are one of the very few special things that actually held a place in my heart and did not just fade away. I've often panicked what I'd do if there was no longer twins. I thought about it deeply and I think I would have lost a part of my life... lost a part of myself. Twins has made up my identity. Twins is a part of me. Everybody knows me as a Twins fan and calls me a crazy fan. I have to say, I am not a crazy fan. I won't go a certain extent for them... but my heart will always have them. My heart will say the most for them... I'm proud to say :: I am a Twins fan forever and ever; and they make me... me... -- PS: Please do not ask me anymore questions regarding Gillian & Edison's scandal. I will make my final comment and that is the end of it. I find further gossiping about it rude. I never did like discussing too much about media news anyways, as I thought that media kills people indirectly; no matter emotionally or physically. So this is my very last. Note that Gillian never meant for it to be exposed as it is part of their private life. Sex nowadays is very common and shouldn't be made into such a big deal. The only thing that made it big is because of media and people taking a liking to gossip. It is surely inevitable. Yet if she wasn't a celebrity, it would just be a 27 year old woman having a relationship with a man. Also as someone has already said, people deserve second chances and I definitely believe Gillian has gotten her punishment out of this. For Twins fans who turned into Gillian haters out there who believe they were betrayed and tricked; NOTE THIS! Gillian has never said anything about her private life that brings her out as this innocent angel. She is a woman, even if she was not with Edison Chen do you believe she has never had a boyfriend before? Also in the entertainment industry, there are many things you do not and will not ever know. The entertainment circle is dark, so things even worse are inevitable. PPS: It is not because I am a Twins fan, but even logically thinking; this is the conclusion I've made up. -- say no more. | | |
| 真的糟了。我又再一次把別人的痛放在自己身上。我本來就快要扛不下。但怎樣難我也要計續扛下去。只要我一放手 就天下大亂了。她說我的家庭背境來說﹑我該成熟到 像一個18歲的女孩。但誰能理解 一個人孤身作戰 完全沒依靠之苦呢? 當一個人發現 全世界都沒有人懂她的時候﹑當一個人發現世界那麼大 也找不到棲身之所 的時候。還能扛得下﹑為了顧全大局 忍氣吞聲的 那上算不夠成熟嗎? 我有嘗試過 告訴妳們我某些苦。但妳們卻把我掉在路邊。不顧我的感受。我想了再想 三思了許多遍。心靈受到傷害 我把心情告訴妳們 想挽留感情 希望我還有機會感受到溫暖。但發覺真的不成。妳們只會拒絕我的痛﹑反過來覺得我是錯的 說我太幼稚了。為可永遠放不下呢? 我會計續扛下去。就算是活在痛苦之中也沒所謂。我會計續努力的。這是我最後一次發表我的心聲。妳們愛聽就聽。但我知道妳們一定會當沒看到的。 --妳說得對。我是很愛我身邊的人。不斷的為他們付出。我知道 愛多錯多的。但我改不了。我本想和你分響一下 希望大家能找到一個辦法解決 但既然妳已決定是我的問題。不能大家一起努力 那我不勉強妳。我懂 反正所有人都是覺得我是錯的那一個。永遠都是這樣。沙士比亞說﹕Expectations is the root to all heartache. 我會自己努力的。 --妳永遠都不會站在我的立場想一想的。。。對吧。永遠都只會覺得我所做的是錯的。 --你也一樣只會覺得我是刁蠻公主的。 --妳常常無意中讓我非常的痛。我知道妳不是故意的。但無情力也是很痛的。 --謝謝你懂我了。你是我的證明 證明我不是永遠錯的那一個。因為你知道我所有的苦。才懂今天的我的心的路有多苦。有些事跟先入為主的他們說 也是白說的。有你在 就給我一種肯定。不是我永遠的錯是你們都不懂我了。 --妳說妳懂我。但是到最後妳還是輕易的把我弄得傷痕苦不含言。 --我受夠你們這群三八。你們不要再把我惹火了。再說阿嬌的話 我怕我會把你們給宰了。 我還扛得下。我還能堅強得起來。我是多多都扛得下的。 | | |
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